What I needed in early sobriety was God.
I needed His presence, His love, and His voice reminding me that I was still His.
But I didn’t know that back then, and because I didn’t, sobriety felt so much harder than it had to be.

I fought tooth and nail for willpower, thinking if I could just push through long enough, I’d feel better. I white-knuckled my way through each day, hoping it would pass quickly so I could just survive to the next. I was sober, but I was exhausted — disconnected, spiritually empty, and carrying the weight of it all on my own.

What I truly needed was identity, to know I was loved even in my mess. To believe that I had a purpose beyond just “not drinking.” I needed to know I wasn’t too far gone for God to use me — that He hadn’t given up on me like I had so many times before.

There was a time I thought, “I’ll never be able to do this for the rest of my life.” That thought stuck with me, followed by another one — “What’s the point?” I didn’t have faith. I wasn’t saved yet. I didn’t know there was a deeper meaning to life or that God could transform my pain into something beautiful. I wasn’t just fighting addiction, I was fighting the silence, the shame, and the fear that maybe I was beyond hope.

But what I didn’t know then is that God was already there.
He wasn’t waiting for me to get it together.
He was waiting for me to turn to Him.

God doesn’t want to meet us after we’ve cleaned ourselves up. He wants to walk with us from the very beginning. From that first shaky step out of addiction, He’s ready to lead us — not just into sobriety, but into healing, wholeness, and identity.

And He doesn’t ask us to come to Him once — He invites us to keep showing up, every single day.
“Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.” (James 4:8)
“In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:6)

The path isn’t always easy, but we never have to walk it alone.
Recovery isn’t just about breaking habits; it’s about building a new life.
One rooted in truth. One filled with grace. One where we stop trying to fix ourselves and finally let God heal us.

That’s why I’m building a Christian recovery coaching program — not just to help women get sober, but to walk with them as they invite God into every part of their healing. Because real recovery isn’t just about abstaining, it’s about becoming who you were always meant to be in Christ.

If this speaks to your heart, stay close.
Something new is coming… a space for women like you to be seen, supported, and spiritually rooted as you grow in both sobriety and faith.

You don’t have to do this alone.
You never did.